This was the moment we had prepared for, sort of! We approached her school, made our way down the stairs to a very large room. Ava met her newest friend Renee out front and it was like no time had passed since the first day they met at the Physical Literacy Day! The girls laughed and giggled and my heart melted and silently wept inside. My baby, my sweet little Ava girl who approaches all situations with such zest and fearlessness is approaching this day with all the grace and courage I knew she would. This was my baby on registration day for Kindergarten, I can still hear her sweet baby cry, her singing her ABC's for the 1st time, her first steps, all of her 1sts, I still remember them. They just happened...yesterday..... right?? Where is my Kleenex?
We sit in the large room and listen to instructions, they line the kids up in their proper group and we are told that parents will come to the classroom as well. Ava stands in her line up and my heart swooned, so many feelings are flooding in. The line begins to move and all the kids anxiously search for parents while trying to stay in line, I can see the worry their sweet little faces. All the parents rush to walk beside their children and it almost creates this quiet chaos of a riot. With all the kids and parents rushing, the feelings flooding and the anxiety mounting, I hear her sweet voice, "MOMMY?" and she reaches up and grabs my hand. Everything stops, our world calms and this warmth embraced me... She still needs me! Me, her mommy, she still needs me!
I see her courageousness and I hope time could just stop moving! As I get ready to welcome a new baby to the house, I am so saddened that I'm loosing my first baby! But today, she told me, "I'm nervous mommy!" and she saw me, she knew I was there, always whether in person or in her heart and she went and sat down on the mat anyways. As much as I comforted her today, she comforted me!
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